Why I Am Obsessed With Sleep
I'm Mollie McGlocklin and I am on a mission to change the conversation around sleep.
One of the lowest and scariest moments of my life was when I started to have a panic attack in Rome... in THE Coliseum (yes, THAT one)...in the middle of a tour group. I hadn’t slept in almost 3 days and this particular tipping point came on the heels of months of chronic sleep deprivation. I felt embarrassed and ashamed. But most of all, I felt terrified that it would always be this way. I didn’t know what to do or where to turn. Every doctor's conversation or google search ended in some sort of pill or supplement. I felt like there was no clear path avaiable to calm down my very physical anxiety, without pills, long enough to make my sleep 'normal' again.
Desperate, I took the following actions:
- I had phone calls with countless doctors
- I reached out to sleep clinics
- I joined all of the top “sleep solution” courses
- I scoured the latest sleep studies
- I kept detailed sleep logs
- I read all the "must-read" books on sleep
- I read the obscure books on sleep
- I bought every sleep gadget
- I called wellness centers
- I joined facebook groups
- I tried hypnosis
- I attended relaxation/meditation events
- I got bloodwork done
- I sought out breathwork gurus
- I took every major prescription & OTC sleep aid
- I tried every type of sleep supplement
- I turned to alcohol to fall asleep
- I journaled my frustrations
- I tried heavy workouts
- I tried light relaxing workouts
- I tested out adding in tai chi & yoga
- I got meditations apps
- I attended personal development courses
- I listened to sleep podcasts/interviews
- I spoke to everyone that would listen about sleep
Behind it all, what I wanted to know that it was going to be okay. I wanted the success stories. I wanted to hear from others who had been through what I had been through...and made it to other side happy & healthy. Instead, it felt like the loudest voices were the ones that still suffering.
My road to recovery did not have to be so hard, lonely, shameful, and confusing.
And now that I'm not only surviving but thriving with my sleep, I'm committed that others get to experience that feeling too. It doesn't have to be so hard.
I am living proof that if a chronically sleep deprived night owl can transform their habits and sleep without pills...anyone can do it!